dreaming some dreams.
This is nicer than my apartment…
This is so lovely.
I wish MY Maddie were this versatile.
So here I am again, Tumblr. My not so triumphant return to blogging.
The past year…hell, two years, I’ve gotten damn lost. I’ve forgotten how to be grateful and lively and inspired and inspirational, among many other things. I attribute this to two things: becoming a for real alcoholic and leaving Tumblr (really, the internet as a whole).
There was a time when, if I was down, Tumblr would cheer me up. All these wonder-fucking-ful people and stories and sources of any damn kind of inspiration you could need. Admittedly, I never really gave as much as I got. Original content? Psh, hardly a whisper of it on my blog. But I always felt as though I was “paying it forward” in real life. I channeled all the creativity Tumblr stirred up in me into tangible (and kickass) original artwork. All the love and sense of community I felt here, I shared with the world around me.
One day, all that went away. I had more real life friends than I knew what to do with, I didn’t NEED the internet anymore! And damned if it didn’t all go downhill from there!
Okay, so maybe it’s a little ridiculous to blame my downward spiral on a lack of selfies, pictures of what everyone ate for lunch and stories from my peers. The truth is, I just let myself go. I let everything around me just kind of fall away. Everything became meaningless and my general attitude was, “what’s the point?” And then I started browsing that big blue wonderland that is Tumblr (along with some lifestyle changes for sure). Started seeing so many possibilities and people just “getting out there”. It made me question what the hell I was doing and just why the hell I wasn’t doing what I’m AWESOME at: creating.
In conclusion, you guys are all amazing and sharing in your triumphs and defeats and general badassery makes me a way better person. Thank you.
We rode the ferry to Puget Sound? And we were still in love. We thought we’d be married. We believed in ourselves and each other.
How different we’ve become. How empty every dream. How bleak the promise of each new prospect in the shadow of our prime.
Wondering when, or if ever, we’ll feel so spectacular a thing again.
Richard Dawkins: The lucky ones (via ZEN PENCILS)
Though he is probably more well-known today for his views on religion, Dawkins is first and foremost an evolutionary biologist.
He has dedicated his life to studying evolution and to him it must be so bleeding obvious, and so much more awe-inspiring and beautiful, that the complexity of life on Earth is thanks to Natural Selection rather than Intelligent Design.”
Trying so hard to let this urge fade away but this just makes me want it even more. I swear if I could figure out how my eyebrows wouldn’t look ridiculous, I’d have already made my appointment.
DUUUUDE! That’s exactly the color I wanted when I first dyed my hair purple but I couldn’t find it anywhere in Missoula. So, I went with fuchsia!
When he paints on her.
I’m so in love with this video… and not just because Shia LaBeouf is stark bollock naked in it.
Holy wow, when did Shia get sexy?
the only thing that’s missing is a potato beard.
Don’t want anything else in the whole wide world right now.
Blue Valentine (2010) - Starring Ryan Gosling and Michelle Williams
Fuck this movie right in the ear. Damn it right to hell for being an uncomfortably accurate representation of my last relationship. Grumble grumble grumble.