June 2013
4 posts
“Stop comparing where you’re at with where everyone else is. It doesn’t move you farther ahead, improve your situation, or help you find peace. It just feeds your shame, fuels your feelings of inadequacy, and ultimately, it keeps you stuck. The reality is that there is no one correct path in life. Everyone has their own unique journey. A path that’s right for someone else won’t necessarily be a path that’s right for you. And that’s okay. Your journey isn’t right or wrong, or good or bad. It’s just different. Your life isn’t meant to look like anyone else’s because you aren’t like anyone else. You’re a person all your own with a unique set of goals, obstacles, dreams, and needs. So stop comparing, and start living. You may not have ended up where you intended to go. But trust, for once, that you have ended up where you needed to be. Trust that you are in the right place at the right time. Trust that your life is enough. Trust that you are enough.”
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Daniell Koepke (via monkeyknifefight)
Reblog for the needed insight. I tend to forget this in epic moments of weakness and shame. Need a little positive insight sometimes.
(via knotical)
Must remember.
February 2013
1 post
To Anyone Still Listening
So here I am again, Tumblr. My not so triumphant return to blogging.
The past year…hell, two years, I’ve gotten damn lost. I’ve forgotten how to be grateful and lively and inspired and inspirational, among many other things. I attribute this to two things: becoming a for real alcoholic and leaving Tumblr (really, the internet as a whole).
There was a time when, if I was down, Tumblr would cheer me up. All these wonder-fucking-ful people and stories and sources of any damn kind of inspiration you could need. Admittedly, I never really gave as much as I got. Original content? Psh, hardly a whisper of it on my blog. But I always felt as though I was “paying it forward” in real life. I channeled all the creativity Tumblr stirred up in me into tangible (and kickass) original artwork. All the love and sense of community I felt here, I shared with the world around me.
One day, all that went away. I had more real life friends than I knew what to do with, I didn’t NEED the internet anymore! And damned if it didn’t all go downhill from there!
Okay, so maybe it’s a little ridiculous to blame my downward spiral on a lack of selfies, pictures of what everyone ate for lunch and stories from my peers. The truth is, I just let myself go. I let everything around me just kind of fall away. Everything became meaningless and my general attitude was, “what’s the point?” And then I started browsing that big blue wonderland that is Tumblr (along with some lifestyle changes for sure). Started seeing so many possibilities and people just “getting out there”. It made me question what the hell I was doing and just why the hell I wasn’t doing what I’m AWESOME at: creating.
In conclusion, you guys are all amazing and sharing in your triumphs and defeats and general badassery makes me a way better person. Thank you.
November 2012
1 post
Remember that time
We rode the ferry to Puget Sound? And we were still in love. We thought we’d be married. We believed in ourselves and each other.
How different we’ve become. How empty every dream. How bleak the promise of each new prospect in the shadow of our prime.
Wondering when, or if ever, we’ll feel so spectacular a thing again.
September 2012
2 posts
August 2012
1 post
June 2012
2 posts
Play
February 2012
3 posts
September 2011
2 posts
August 2011
4 posts
I need a tattoo.
Monies come to me.
Being Alone
When I first left Danny, it was really hard to be alone. I just couldn’t do it. I had to have everyone around me always.
Time heals all wounds…being alone is enjoyable again.
July 2011
26 posts
I'm so over Tumblr...
“You have to question a cinematic culture which preaches artistic expression, and yet would support a decision that is clearly a product of a patriarchy-dominant society, which tries to control how women are depicted on screen. The MPAA is okay supporting scenes that portray women in scenarios of sexual torture and violence for entertainment purposes, but they are trying to force us to look away from a scene that shows a woman in a sexual scenario, which is both complicit and complex. It’s misogynistic in nature to try and control a woman’s sexual presentation of self. I consider this an issue that is bigger than this film. … There is something very distorted about this reality that they’ve created, which is that it is OK to torture women on screen. Any kind of violence towards women in a sexual scenario is fine. But give a woman pleasure? No way. Not a chance. That’s pornography.”
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Ryan Gosling, actor and feminist, in a letter protesting the NC-17 rating of Blue Valentine. The rating was based on one consensual sex scene. (via snowstorminjuly)
“What should I do about the wild and the tame? The wild heart that wants to be free, and the tame heart that wants to come home. I want to be held. I don’t want you to come too close. I want you to scoop me up and bring me home at nights. I don’t want to tell you where I am. I want to keep a place among the rocks where no one can find me. I want to be with you.”
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THIS.
Jeanette Winterson (via fuckault)
Things I enjoy:
.making coffee
.sleeping in
.the idea of owning a cat
.hot showers
.friends
.beers
.talking smack
.eating in bed
When did I make a second tumblr and become super gorgeous and fascinating? I don’t even remember typing this list!
I kind of figured that once I made my decision to leave, people would ask me about it. Maybe they’d check on me to see how it was affecting me and if I needed to talk. Turns out that most people would rather just avoid you. I suppose it’s a good thing that I don’t much feel like talking about it anyway.
It’s a funny thing to watch happen, though. Everything and everyone in your life comes into perspective and you realize (or maybe you’ve known all along) who you really need and want in your life.
Breathe Me
Sia
Breathe Me | Sia
Be my friend.
Hold me, wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, I’m needy
Warm me up and breathe me
Pie.: The Paradoxical Commandments →
pie0.me
by Dr. Kent M. Keith
- People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered. Love them anyway.
- If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives. Do good anyway.
- If you are successful, you win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.
- The good you do…
Being alone isn’t what I thought it would be.
